Wow!!! Tajuk post menarik?? hehehe.... Hari ni merupakan hari ke-13 Syawal. Ni nak story sikit pasal raya this year. FYI, this is our first year at our new home. Sangat gembira bila dah ada rumah sendiri. It is just not a house, it's a home. Tau tak bezanya?
So, let my story begin. Pagi 1 Syawal lagi El dah menyambutnya dengan air mata kesedihan. humm....On our way to my parent in-law's house, i cried in the car. Why? Every time 1 Syawal tiba, family belah hubby have to bekumpol di rumah Tok Wan, his grandma. El tak berapa suka nak berkumpol ramai-ramai ni . Especially when there's a mommy to be among our cousins.huhhh!!!! But!! Miracle happened. I dun feel nothing at all when i saw his cousin pregnant. El ikhlas hati rasa bersyukur and hepy for them. Suddenly i feel redha with ketentuan Ilahi. I believe that If Allah say No to our prayer, keep in mind that there is a much greater Yes behind it.
Syukur alhamdulillah.... Pengalaman makes me a better and stronger person. Ya Allah, please give me strength and happiness in my life. Amin.....
Love,
El.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
This is Me
Assalamualaikum & Hi,
This blog was created by a wife who are currently on the infertility journey. Through many heartaches and life trials my husband and I continue to believe in our dreams and desires. Through faith in God and our believe in Qada' & Qadar we have vowed to never give up. Infertility is a soul-crushing and heartbreaking journey. It's one of those things that if you're not going through it, you just don't get it.
Beginning the fertility treatment process is an emotional leap. Making baby is supposed to be fun and natural process, and brings two people in love together in the most intimate of physical acts, so they can create a child who will forever be a symbol of that love. Bila proses secara semulajadi ini di bawa ke bilik gynae and treatment centres, which menjadikan ia pengalaman secara klinikal instead of personal one, boleh menjadikan suasana yang tegang. And that can be tough for both of us to accept.
We've been married for almost three years now. This coming October is our 3rd anniversary as husband and wife. I've been diagnosed with PCOS last year. There are so many tears and heartaches that we've been through especially when it comes to the urine test result. We've been through so many fertility treatments, from the low tech (traditional therapy) to the modern tech.
If ada antara u all yang mengalami the same situation, so you're not alone. (about 15 percent of couples have problems with infertility). Macam-macam perasaan yang dialami; sedih, tension, guilty, kecewa, rasa rendah diri. So, I hope this blog can be the place for childless wife to share our story together. Till we meet again.
Love,
El.
This blog was created by a wife who are currently on the infertility journey. Through many heartaches and life trials my husband and I continue to believe in our dreams and desires. Through faith in God and our believe in Qada' & Qadar we have vowed to never give up. Infertility is a soul-crushing and heartbreaking journey. It's one of those things that if you're not going through it, you just don't get it.
Beginning the fertility treatment process is an emotional leap. Making baby is supposed to be fun and natural process, and brings two people in love together in the most intimate of physical acts, so they can create a child who will forever be a symbol of that love. Bila proses secara semulajadi ini di bawa ke bilik gynae and treatment centres, which menjadikan ia pengalaman secara klinikal instead of personal one, boleh menjadikan suasana yang tegang. And that can be tough for both of us to accept.
We've been married for almost three years now. This coming October is our 3rd anniversary as husband and wife. I've been diagnosed with PCOS last year. There are so many tears and heartaches that we've been through especially when it comes to the urine test result. We've been through so many fertility treatments, from the low tech (traditional therapy) to the modern tech.
If ada antara u all yang mengalami the same situation, so you're not alone. (about 15 percent of couples have problems with infertility). Macam-macam perasaan yang dialami; sedih, tension, guilty, kecewa, rasa rendah diri. So, I hope this blog can be the place for childless wife to share our story together. Till we meet again.
Love,
El.
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